God's Graciousness to Us

I should be studying for two exams that I have tomorrow, but I can't focus - there's too much on my heart and mind. So that's why I'm writing. I must confess - this has been a rough semester, full of a lot of pain and heartache, struggling and working through my sin. But I haven't been alone, even though there were many times I cried desperately for the Lord, wondering where He was. Although it has been difficult, I see how God has been fighting for me. I have experienced His mercies new every day, no matter how hard I fell. Some days I feel too exhausted, too worn out, too defeated to keep going (I don't mean that in a suicidal way). Thankfully, the Lord loves me too much to let me go and to let me stop fighting to live for Him. Sometimes I wish life were a breeze. I wish I could just coast and not have to fight, not have to struggle or suffer. But Christ loves me way too much to let me coast, to let me keep on sinning without thinking twice about it. He is so gracious to us when He reveals our sin and our weaknesses to us. I think I lost count of how many times I have seen my weaknesses this year. I must say, it is humbling. Very humbling. But I have seen my need for Christ more than ever. I have heard the enemy speak so many lies into my ear, and I have believed many. But again and again, I rise after I have fallen, because of the grace and mercy of Jesus Christ. That is why He died. He didn't die for people who have it all together. He died for the sick, the needy, the murderer, the ungodly and sinner, for the unholy and profane. I am thankful that through Christ, I can change and become more like Him. One of my favorite verses right now is Philippians 1:6, "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." This is a promise of His faithfulness to us.